A proving of Thiosinamine
This proving is
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Thiosinamine is a
chemical derivative from volatile mustard oil, Black mustard (Sinapis nigra)
being the source. The dried black ripe seeds are distilled to produce volatile
mustard oil, but the oil can also be produced synthetically from the
interaction of allyl iodide and potassium thiocyanate, the oil contains not
less than 92 % allyl isothiocyanate. The oil is colourless or slightly yellow
in colour and with a very pungent irritating odour. By adding excess alcohol
and ammonia to volatile mustard oil, the odour disappears gradually in cold and
more quickly on heating, while crystals of thiosinamine are formed.
2. Mustard
To understand a
little more about Thiosinamine it helps to also know something about the
original source from which it was derived, mustard.
The word mustardt'
comes from the Latin must (much) and
A one-acre field of
mustard produces 1 tonne of seed, which produces 880kg of mustard flour. This
produces 4760kg of wet mustard, which produces 47600 jars of mustard. It was
not until the 18th century that mustard seeds were used more widely as a
condiment - and, even then, diners had to crush the seeds on their own plates
before mixing them with vinegar and water to suit their taste.
3. Folk Medicine -
Mustard
The seed or its oil
is taken both internally or externally, for cancers, growths of the abdomen,
spleen, stomach, throat, uterus or wrist indurations. Medicinally, seeds are
considered diaphoretic, diuretic, emetic, expectorant, irritant, and stimulant,
and are used in poultices for acute local pain, pneumonia, bronchitis, and
other diseases of the respiratory organs. The volatile oil is a powerful
irritant, rubefacient, and vesicant, used for rheumatic pains and colic. In
1699 John Evelyns Acetaria says of the seedlings of incomparable effect to
quicken and revive the spirits, strengthening the memory expelling heaviness
besides being an approved antiscorbutic. As a counterirritant, the seeds ground
and mixed with vinegar are recommended for rheumatism, yet used internally for
digestive disorders. Mustard seed tea has been prescribed as a gargle for sore
throat, and it is said to relieve bronchitis and rheumatism (Grieve, 1931). The
plant is thought to have emollient and sedative, even narcotic properties (Watt
and Breyer-Brandwijk, 1962).
4. Chemistry of
Mustard
White Mustard
contains an enzyme myrosin and a glucoside sinalbin, which yields upon
hydrolysis, acrinyl isothiocynate, a pungent tasting but almost odourless oil.
Sinalbin mustard oil is only slightly volatile with steam, and causes blisters
on the skin. Seeds contain 7.2% moisture, 27.6% protein, 29.7% crude fat, 20.8%
N-free extract, 10.3% fibre, and 4.5% ash (C.S.I.R. 1948-1976). Asian analyses
suggest that the seed contains per 100g: 469 calories, 5.0% moisture, 26.4%
protein, 36.3% fat, 28.2% total carbohydrate, 5.2% fibre, 4.1% ash, 410 mg
Calcium, 613 mg Phosphorus, 20.9 mg Iron, 630 mg beta carotene equivalent, 0.40
mg thiamine, 0.31 mg riboflavin, 7.3 mg niacin, and 0 ascorbic acid.
5. Toxicity of
Mustard.
Seeds have a
cathartic acid due to liberation of Hydrogen sulphide on contact with water.
Large doses may produce sulphide poisoning, with cyanosis, etc. Troxler (1981)
reports fatalities in 19 of 48 heifers fed white mustard.
6. The proving
remedy Thiosinamine.
A rare snake venom
was chosen but became unavailable, which set back the proving by 6 months
(being a typical theme in Thiosinamine - so even before the remedy was formally
chosen it was exhibiting its effects).
I chose Thiosinamine
because although it already exists in materia medica, the information is
restricted to adhesions4 and healing of old scar tissue. The scar tissue theme
was interesting and I wondered if the remedy could do similar things on the
mental and emotional level.
7. Proving
Methodology.
The proving was
conducted mainly following the recommendations of Jeremy Sherr.5 The provers
had their case taken one month before the start of the proving so that any
symptoms they had before the proving could be eliminated. If however the nature
of the symptom had changed this would be noted as a part of the proving, so,
for instance any previous symptoms intensified, or return of old symptoms would
be noted, as would any existing symptoms which were cured during the proving.
Apart from the above exceptions any symptoms recorded would be new symptoms.
Several meetings
were organised and finally provers and supervisors were organised into pairs.
The remedy was prepared at Helios pharmacy, and the remedies were provided in
coded bottles so that no one, myself included, except the pharmacy knew what
each prover received until the end of the proving. Provers took the
Thiosinamine between the middle and end of January 1998.
Provers and
supervisors would initially keep contact daily by phone, and once a week in
person, both prover and supervisor keeping diaries of the provers symptoms.
Neither prover or supervisor was permitted to discuss the proving with others
participating until the proving meeting at the end of the proving where all the
symptoms would be collated.
The proving was
conducted with a wide range of potencies between 6 and 1M. The reasoning being
that I wanted to get a wide range of the effects of the remedy and in
particular its effect on the mental and emotional levels for which in the
present materia medica there is little or no information.
The codes and
potencies were as follows: 100-6c female, 105-Placebo female, 101-1M male,
107-1M male, 102-6c male, 108-30c female 103-200c female, 109-200c female
104-30c female, 110-1M female
Prover 105, the
placebo, produced a lot of symptoms which also seem to fit with the overall
remedy picture. This at first hand seems unusual, but may be explained in that
those involved in the proving were students from the college.
Sankaren6 has talked
about communal consciousness and the students were known to each other and used
to meet at college monthly, so there was a communal experience in which the
provers and supervisors were involved. It is possible in such a situation that
despite the fact that 105 was given placebo, she may have developed symptoms of
the proving by being part of the group and college community involved in the
proving. All information on the placebo is included as anecdotal evidence
rather than within the main proving.
In the provings
conducted by Nuala Eising7 where the individuals do not know each other and
hence there is no communal consciousness provers on placebo do not produce
significant symptoms.
8. Nomenclature
The proving is
written in the words of the provers. No attempt is made to change the language
of the provers until the text of the provers is converted into repertory
language.
The first section
involves the experiences of the provers divided into the various sections of
the repertory. The division of the body was used using the Complete Repertory
format that has close similarities to
Coding
After a provers
symptoms, there are numbers in brackets. e.g. (104,f,30: 05:XX:XX).
The first number is
the prover number, the letter denotes f-female or m- male, the next number is
the remedy potency.
After the colon the
first number is the day, followed by the hours and minutes, (usually depicted
as XX). The exact hours and minutes are only noted on the first day (day 00).
If the first dose of remedy is taken at
Abbreviations
IOS : Intensified
Old Symptom. - This a symptom experienced before the proving but which has
become more intense since the proving started, and hence is likely to be
significant.
ROS : Return Old
Symptom. - When a patient experiences ROS during normal homoeopathic treatment
it is considered a healing reaction of the treatment. So if a ROS occurs during
the proving a special note is made of it.
8. The Proving Of
Thiosinamine
MIND
Waiting
The theme of waiting
patiently already applies to the proving for me. Waiting for the proving to
start, waiting for the time to be right, delays, but it is OK. (104,f 30:
Before proving)
Waiting has suddenly
come to the fore - I feel Ive been waiting for something dramatic to happen with
the proving, but it isnt, and I need to reconcile myself to the fact that it
might not. I feel impatient. (104,f,30: 05:XX:XX)
2 patients havent
shown this morning, so Ive had two hours wasted waiting for them with no time
to get on with anything else. Thats wasted time! (104,f,30: 05:XX:XX)
Waiting is a big
part of my supervisors life at the moment - waiting for something that could go
either way. Also world events the Clinton Affair - will he go or wont he? The
UN in Iraq and the British / US threats - will they or wont they? (104,f,30:
08:XX:XX)
Size
Feel thinner but
know Im not. (109,f, 200: 00:XX:XX)
Looked smaller, my
features and general being. (110,f,1M: 08:XX:XX)
I feel taller.
(110,f,1M : 23:XX:XX)
Unreal
Things started to
look unreal. Sensation as if not having enough sleep, dream like state. Like
not got a firm grip on things. Like not in your body. (103, f, 200: 00:02:15)
(ROS) I dont feel
quite in the world - culturally things have gone on around me, Ive missed things.
(109,f,200: 00:XX:XX)
Very tired, wanting
to lie down, and feeling of everything being unreal came over me. (103, f, 200:
00: O3: XX)
Relaxed / contented
Doesnt feel as
anxious as of late. (103,f,200: 00:03:45)
Husband got annoyed
at amount of pots to be washed. I was determined not to bother about this - I
would normally get anxious about his anger - I was sarcastic, sarcastic and
scornful and he laughed and came out of his anger. Felt high from this time as
the time progresses. (103, f, 200: 00:04:25)
Feeling very happy
and contented and grounded, and noticing others being more frazzled than usual.
(104,f,30: 00:XX:XX)
Quite cheerful all
day. (101, m, 1M: 01:XX:XX)
Daughter comments I
look well. Feels optimistic. Better in company. (103, f,200: 01:XX: XX)
Calmer still and
more relaxed. I didnt feel hyper before, but this has given me a different
perspective. (107,m, 1M: 01:XX: XX)
Things feel gentle -
the atmosphere in the house, family feels gentle, cheerful-at one. My partner
even smiled first thing in the morning. (104,f, 30: 02:XX: XX)
Laid back. Feel it
will all work out. (110,f, 1M: 02:XX: XX)
Calm - persistently.
Stressful situations did not feel stressful it just flowed. (110,f, 1M: 03:XX:
XX)
Felt calm all day
except when really pushed by the kids, but didnt lose it even then. (104,f, 30:
04:XX: XX)
I feel fine - Feel
very happy and contented. (110,f, 1M: 07:XX: XX)
Energy level still
high, going with the flow. (110,f, 1M: 08:XX: XX)
Very relaxed and happy
sailed through a stressful situation. Better for being by the sea. (110,f, 1M:
09:XX: XX)
Very happy to see a
lot of friends - cheerful. (101, m. 1M: 19:XX: XX)
Got engaged
Valentines day - and we went to see the dogs at Bellevue and had a great time!
Not romantic, but fun and a new experience. (104,f, 30: 24:XX: XX)
Feeling very calm
(things change from day to day) and able to cope well with things happening out
of the blue, such as unexpected visitors staying for tea. (104,f, 30: 27:XX:
XX)
A friend said I
looked radiant over the last 2 weeks! She said every time she sees me she
notices more. (104,f, 30: 44:XX:XX)
Heightened Awareness
Heightened
awareness, referring to colours, sounds and shapes, More in the now: things are
defined and precise, pure and pristine, no encumbrances. Im in the now just
accepting it not thinking. Observing without overt reaction. I feel calm,
fairly focused. Notice things more, not intellectually just instantly.
Everything seems slow and defined wasnt thinking about what I should be doing.
(107,m, 1M: 00:12:00)
My senses were
strongly evoked while walking in the park - smells, sights, and noises.
Everything seemed very crisp and nice, although it was grey and drizzling in
reality. (104,f, 30: 01:XX: XX)
Sounds and shapes
more vivid than colours. Noticing more movements in my peripheral vision. Seem
to notice noises more clearly the sound seems to be amplified. (107,m, 1M:
01:XX: XX)
Had impression that
other provers were a little wild-eyed and ###### perhaps explains the last few
days. Feel ##### and sensual and detached. Remedy has heightened sensuality.
Once again aware of amplification of sound. Whispers, coughs, laughs, as if
they were personal and intimate - as if they involved me. Noticed other people
looking at me but feels good. Felt more confident at college, more in control
of situation, Aware of the harsh side of the remedy but also its potential for
strength. If I can handle the immediacy of it, it can be used constructively.
(107,m,1M: 21:XX: XX)
Woman got on tram,
stands stark opposite. Thought she was sensual and symbolic. I felt I was
controlling the situation and editing/scripting it. Realised the importance of
perspective in interpretation - anything is possible. Sense of exhilaration.
(107,m, 1M: 21:XX: XX)
Have developed an
intense passion for someone I shouldnt have! Its a hugely deep physical and
mental attraction and it feels all consuming and very distracting. I want to
spend all my time fantasizing about meeting him, and to sleep in order to dream
about him! Its about passion on the emotional level, not sexual. About a
meeting of minds and hearts, and it feels so right, but at the same time it
feels so wrong because of my commitment to my partner. All in all, a very sensitive
issue, and I keep trying to push it away and hold on it being a part of the
proving, but the stronger urge is holding onto it because it feels so exciting
and new! (108,f, 30: 20:XX: XX)
Heaviness of thought
combined with a lightness of sensation. Aware of every neuralgia pain and every
little itch. A bit hypochondriacal. After seeing sister my own fears have been
heightened. (1O7,m,1M: 24:XX:XX)
Colours, noises,
sounds are vivid again. Sensual feel for the city, cold almost clinical
observation of the chaos that could ensue. Mind lively, body sluggish. There is
a debilitating quality to the remedy. (107,m, 1M: 26:XX: XX)
Synchronicity
2 instances of
synchronicity - I couldnt find the milk in its usual place in the corner shop
and was told it hadnt arrived yet, and then on leaving the shop the milk float
turned up. It felt as if one minute milk was completely lacking, and the next
it was there in abundance! Later in the day I was very aware how much milk my
daughter was drinking and expressed concern to her. (104,f, 30: 00: XX: XX)
Was thinking about
how a patient Id spoken with yesterday she hadnt mentioned a symptom thats been
bothering her a lot recently; then I walked into my work room to find she was
leaving a message on the phone saying shed forgotten to mention the symptom and
that she was still worried about it. So both of us had been thinking the same
thing at the same time. (104,f, 30: 00: XX: XX)
Ive been thinking
about getting my hair cut professionally for the last two weeks and today a new
patient who turned out to have been a very high class stylist and gave me some
advice - although it wasnt asked for! It felt like wonderful timing - a spur in
the right direction. (104,f, 30: 07:XX: XX)
2 pieces of
synchronicity this morning: -
Id been thinking
about a case from three years ago (I havent seen him for 12 months) with a view
to discussing it with students, and this morning his mother rang to say he
needed some more (of the remedy). (104,f, 30: 08:XX: XX)
Clarity
Feel very clear
headed and alert therefore a good sleep refreshed. No anxiety about seeing
patients. (103, f, 200: 01:XX: XX)
Pleased was able to
deal quite firmly and directly with difficult patients - very slight
aggression. Slightly stood back, detached. No anticipatory feelings. Dealt with
her in the here and now - didnt allow games / messing about. (103, f, 200: O1:
XX: XX)
No sense of
hurriedness. Clarity and determination, and accomplish things. No anxiety.
(103, f, 200: 01: XX: XX)
Need to tidy up
(generally untidy), moved some paintings. Old packets and bottles moved off
freezer. Felt needed to tidy up house then tidy up garden, cut back dead wood
etc. (103, f, 200: 03:XX: XX)
Not feeling as
anxious. Not heavy headed. (103, f, 200: 03: XX:XX)
My husband said out
of the blue that the remedy was making me more direct, assertive, but not
bossy. This week more organised. (103, f, 200: 04:XX:XX)
Visited mum - didnt
feel as antagonistic as I normally do. Afterwards she said shed come to visit
me. Going home I was aware there was a softening to that idea. Havent wanted
her in the house before, decided to invite her up. (103, f, 200: 04:XX:XX)
Daughter not home
shed rang earlier to say she was going to be late - keep her tea warm. Husband
angry at waste of electricity. I was untouched by his anger. Thought they can
sort it out between them. (Previously would have felt a knot in stomach,
anxiety and would have tried to appease him.) Felt empathy with him. (103, f,
200: 04:XX: XX)
Still tidying - a
backlog of case notes, teaching notes. (103, ft 200: 04:XX: XX)
Found myself
cleaning up kitchen - not obsessive just sense of putting things in order and
organising things. Pleasant symptoms efficient, not efficacious. Sense of
well-being. (103, f, 200: 04:XX: XX)
Looked at garden
today and was able to see it clearer i.e. more observant - able to see a
broader picture rather than individual bits, the whole. (103, f, 200: 07:XX:
XX)
Made daughter get
off the phone. In the past would have wanted to, but now did. Was downright
bossy, not dictatorial just firm. Feel very well, quite calm and optimistic.
Getting used to the idea that there is no certainty in doing the job
(homoeopathy) and the results. Job before, felt needed certainty.
Far more assertive
in myself, the external uncertainties dont matter so much. Feel its the
beginning of a new way of thinking about things, feel very optimistic about
things. (103, f, 200: 07:XX: XX)
(R0S) Phoned back
difficult patient - she was rude, offensive, I wasnt upset by it. (103, f, 200:
08:XX: XX)
Supermarket bill was
very large this week. D. started to moan about it as he usually does. I usually
ignore his moaning but today I felt very sympathetic towards him I knew how he
felt (This is the same feeling as a few days ago, when I knew how he felt when
he was angry with my daughter.) I said nothing because I didnt feel anything I
said would make it better. He came round very quickly after 15 minutes to
apologise to me for his ranting on. (103, f, 200: 10:XX: XX)
I seem to be
standing back and getting everything done, (110,f, 1M: 10:XX: XX)
Did some gardening
and cleared away some dead trees and brambles felt brighter after doing it /
more cheerful. (101, m, 1M: 13:XX: XX)
Busier than usual important
meeting pending - felt in control. (101, m, 1M: 14:XX: XX)
Lots of energy all
evening worked till midnight. (104,f, 30: 13:XX: XX)
Desire to clean -
feeling very fastidious - wanted everything to be exact. (110,f, 1M: 13:XX: XX)
Created festive
atmosphere - like Christmas. Desire to stop the world - get everything sorted
and up to date and then get everything started again. (110,f, 1M: 14:XX: XX)
Phone call from a
third difficult patient complaining about treatment, since the start of the
proving. This is unusual for me, my feeling is not as anxious about this as I
would have been, before taking the proving my feeling was more of concern than
anxiety. (103, f. 200: 17:XX: XX)
Out walking in the
Peak District today. Found I was able to make connections between the various
places in the Peak District. In the past have been familiar with individual
places but not able to fix them together - where they are in relation to each
other. Today I found I could. This is an example of seeing the broader picture
that I experienced in my garden on day 7. (103, f, 200: 17:XX: XX)
Made a sudden
realisation as to the meaning of a recurrent childhood nightmare, while
chatting to a friend - it all fell into place, and was linked with the film
Wizard of Oz - Id never realised that before, although now its blindingly
obvious. (104,f, 30: 17:XX:XX)
Feel very energetic
today - as I used to feel in the morning felt optimistic all day. (103, f, 200:
18:XX: XX)
My partner and I
have decided to get engaged after 17 years of living together, and 2 children!
It seems like a fun, confirming, consolidating thing to do (104,f,30: 19:
XX:XX)
Feeling very busy in
the late evening, wanting to do, not go to bed. Urge to read in particular.
(104,f, 30: 29:XX: XX)
I had my hair cut
for the first time professionally in 7 years! Another thing Id been putting off
and have at last done! (104,f, 30: 39:XX: XX)
Feel bright and
sparkly, creative once more. Had thought Id never be right again. It has
dragged its way through me. (110,f, 1M: 60:XX: XX)
Dictatorial
Bossy. Daughter
objected wanted things to be done. More would be accomplished if she did things
and I did things (not bossy normally). Not dictatorial. Organizing people to
take on tasks. Daughter said I looked well. Feeling calm yet she says Im bossy.
I do not normally ask someone to do something usually do it myself. (103, f,
200: 01:XX: XX)
Feel stroppy and
bossy - its fun actually! My partner accused me of talking like someone out of
Eastenders! Behaving in a rude off hand way. Continued also on and off the next
day. (104, f,30: 09:XX: XX)
Irritability
Conversation on the
telephone was abrupt. Every question answered with a " No, no. Nope, Yep,
No. Monosyllabic, abrupt, aggressive. (100, f, 6: 01:XX: XX)
Alternating between
aggression, hysteria and stupor. (100, f, 6: 01:XX: XX)
Annoyed, slightly
shaky after a phone call from a demanding patient. Quite short on the phone
businesslike. (103, f, 200: 02:XX: XX)
Was direct with
daughter, I could feel anger rising, therefore could be direct without being in
a state, she does so little in the house. (103, f, 200: 02:XX: XX)
A surge of anger
toward a difficult patient, while thinking about her. Patient used to phone
daily, now she has come back, looks like shes doing it again. All at once I
decided I would tell her not to phone every day. Visualised it happening. Never
got to a pitch where I thought I could tell her. Once I decided this, the anger
went after 5 minutes but the decision remained. (103, f, 200: 02:XX: XX)
General feeling for
the day: More anger, lethargy and tiredness. Feeling of anger is lifting; a lid
is lifting off it. Have been keeping the peace for a couple of years.
Keeping everybody
calm, husband and daughter fiery so I have to keep the peace. (103, f, 200:
02:XX: XX)
Later, everyone was
very irritable and definitely not at one. Every little thing feels so difficult
and out to annoy me - inanimate objects especially. This is completely
different to how I felt this morning. Not able to negotiate with my daughter,
just turned her down without listening to her. Wanted kids out of my hair, in
bed, without bedtime stories, and no argument. (104,f 30: 02:XX: XX)
(R0S) Felt
irritable, hot and bothered before bed, just wanted to be left alone. (103, f,
200: 03:XX: XX)
Whole family very
irritable and failing to communicate at all. (104,f, 30: 03:XX: XX)
Annoyed for people
being in my way, Irritable with people. Want to be on my own. Impatient at
others slowness - woman with a pram in front of me Why is she dithering?"
Intolerant (not like me). (100, f,6: 03:XX: XX)
Irritable, wanted to
be left alone and quiet. Partner asked for help in the garden felt obliged out
of duty. (101, m,1M: 05:XX: XX)
(I0S) Woke by answer
phone, didnt answer it but felt annoyed and agitated that a difficult patient
had managed to disturb me, lasted until 2 pm. (103, f, 200: 08:XX: XX)
(I0S) Irritable with
the kids, couldnt wait to get rid of them to bed, just wanted rid of them. (104,f
30: 11:XX: XX)
Irritable in the
morning on being challenged about getting on with jobs that needed doing on the
house / garden (i.e. not getting on with them!) (101, m, 1M: 13:XX: XX)
Busy day - beginning
to feel hassled. (101, m, 1M: 15:XX: XX)
More irritable, felt
constrained by job. Felt like an automaton, not in control. (107,m, 1M: 17:XX:
XX)
Quite wound up at
prospect of long drive to meeting. (101, m, 1M: 18:XX: XX)
On the same night as
having a dream about being concerned about animals, my daughter kept having a
dream about a giant wasp that didnt like people. She came into our room 3 or 4
times, and I was just irritated and said, Go away-I didnt even think of giving
her a hug! It felt very callous of me the following morning. (104,f, 30: 31:XX:
XX)
Very irritable and
feeling out of control today - actually swore at my daughter when she spilt
water all over my work. (104,f, 30: 48:XX: XX)
Continued
irritability with the family - I seem to create situations where I can find fault
and blow up. (104,f, 30: 49:XX: XX)
Shouted at
grandchildren in an unreasonable way - felt very guilty. Irritability better
for walking. Everything that was a problem has now got on top of me. Im hardly
able to do anything because everything has to be done perfectly. There is so
much to put in order I dont know where to start. I dont want to hand over
control to anybody. (103, f, 200: 71:XX: XX)
(From supervisors
diary) Murderous rage. Feels its hormonal. Total unreasonable, sheer rage.
Things winding me up - granddaughter with diabetes - constant battle to get her
to eat, and the dog. Sheer rage. (103, f, 200: 71:XX: XX)
Very irritable. The
cat is irritating me beyond measure. Threw her to the ground feeling loss of
control. Want to control everything. Used to feel like this when premenstrual -
the feeling would go once the period had started. This feeling went once I
started to take Evening Primrose about 20 years ago. (103, f, 200: 71: XX: XX)
Disorientated
Took 4 days to write
a letter - as if time was slipping by - getting nowhere fast. (109,f, 200:
00:XX: XX)
(ROS) I dont feel
quite in the world - culturally things have gone on around me, Ive missed
things. (109,f, 200: 00:XX: XX)
Depressed still,
also no desire to do anything - desire to drink alcohol. (102, m, 6: 01:XX: XX)
Disinclined to work.
(102, m, 6: 03:XX: XX)
I feel depressed in
a strange way - no great appetite for work a wish to enjoy myself - drink, sex,
pleasure. Tiredness not depressed but despair or languor. Drink coffee - I know
its wrong but I need something - the urge to break rules is strong.
No desire to do
things I love doing - garden work, studies and writing, play music, go to
cinema, indifference. (102, m, 6: 08:XX: XX)
Confused. Cant find
familiar objects. (100, f, 6: 01: XX: XX)
Disorientated in
familiar surroundings. (100, f, 6: 01:XX: XX)
Short term memory
shot at. Keeps putting things down and not able to find them even though they
are there. (100, f, 6: 02:XX: XX)
Memory is poor. Loss
of memory for familiar things. (100, f, 6: 01:XX: XX)
Clumsy - dropping
things all the time. (100, f, 6: 01:XX: XX)
Confused and
giggling. (100, f, 6: 02:XX: XX)
Sensation as if
brick wall is stopping me from doing things. Cant get through it. Frustrated.
Cant find a way to remember things. Angry about it. Left my bag of sac lac at
supervisors house yesterday (2kg is difficult to miss) it was in front of my
nose and I needed it. I know Ive done things -cant find a way through it. Cant
find things. Supervisor observed; spent a long time rummaging through her bag
looking for something that she had in her hand, (NOTE: Supervisor also lost
something, a message very important, for 3 days. I searched everywhere for it.
It had been in my hand most of that time.) (100, f, 6: 02:XX: XX)
Circle dancing -
felt well and good energy first half, second half not really there in the room.
Feet felt mixed up. Fatigue (3), lay on floor, dozed, took half an hour to come
out of it. Wondered how I would drive home. Someone asked me if I was OK. She
noticed my feet where getting mixed up. Sensation as if asleep on feet. Wasnt
completely in the room. Not in room / dance. (103, f. 200: 02:XX: XX)
Made a mistake
numbering the day in my diary (only noticed when writing up the proving notes -
this symptom gets worse later on, and I hadnt realised it had started so soon.)
(104,f, 30: 02:XX: XX)
Still clumsy. Keep
dropping things. Ive dropped the car keys I dont know how many times today.
NOTE: Supervisor has constantly been dropping things as well. (100, f, 6:
03:XX: XX)
So far this month
(including the period just before the proving started) 8 patients have got
their appointment times and dates wrong - 3 this week so far! (Ive been able to
establish its not my fault!) (104,f, 30: 07:XX: XX)
A complete lapse of
memory - couldnt remember at all if Id put a remedy out for a patient to
collect although I know Id prepared it, but it wasnt where I should have left
it. As if a chunk of memory had disappeared, for something Id just done.
(104,f, 30: 09:XX: XX)
Felt spaced out
before - now dont feel as detached - I felt out of things. (109,f, 200:
10:XX:XX)
Walking in the
precinct - felt weepy, feeble, weak and a bit pathetic. Confused -whats going
on? (109,f, 200: 13:XX: XX)
Making lots of
mistakes in my writing and misspellings - just spelt round with a w not a r!
Can make 3 or 4 in a sentence, but quickly spot them (when going through
proving notes realized I havent spotted them all.) (104, f, 30: 12:XX: XX)
Supervisor pointed
out Id got the numbering of all the days in the proving diary wrong (corrected
at writing up stage I) (104, f, 30: XX: XX: XX)
(I0S) Busy going
nowhere. (109,f. 200: 14:XX: XX)
Energy levels
dropping fast, difficult to concentrate, cant remember what has been said.
Embarrassing - feel distant. (110,f, 1M: 13:XX: XX)
(I0S) Feel very
negative - What is the point of life? . (109,f, 200: 15:XX: XX)
Still a sense of
distance - feeling I was being drawn away. (110,f, 1M:13:XX: XX)
A feeling of
everything slipping away from me, out of control. Nothing to hold on to. There
is no logical mind behind this - I did administration things this morning and
worked out a new case in the afternoon - that is I have had a productive day.
Not a feeling of pressure of things to do, more a feeling of disintegration.
(103, f, 200: 16:XX: XX)
Feel tired and
horrible, cannot focus. Driving problem cannot gauge distance - mustnt drive
too close in case I hit something. (109.f, 200: 17:XX: XX)
Still feel trapped
and out of control, irritable, edgy and tense. Must try and relax more. Must
look to change otherwise health and study will suffer. (107,m, 1M, 18:XX: XX)
Had a row worse for
consolation. Wanted to sneeze, cough (after the row) but afraid back would go -
but symptoms worse for consolation. Felt out of control - felt as if I was
having a convulsion. Felt very alone vulnerable isolated. They dont deserve me.
Decided to antidote the proving. (109,f, 200: 18:XX: XX)
My mind feels chaotic
and so do my surroundings. Work feels out of control and the house a tip. It
all feels too much to put right. (104,f, 30: 22:XX:XX)
Very aware Im still
making lots of mistakes in writing - sometimes miss letters out or write just
half a letter, i.e. dont complete it. (104,f, 30: 23:XX: XX)
Three times in the
last week Ive taken the wrong route on short familiar local journeys by car.
Suddenly realised Im going the wrong way on journeys I would never usually even
think about! (This is very unusual) (104,f, 30: 24:XX: XX)
Sluggish (mind) and
feeling of unease. A thin insubstantial divide between control and loss.
(107,m, 1M: 25:XX: XX)
No energy feel
zapped. (110,f, 1M: 25:XX: XX)
Feel decidedly not
with it - wandered around. Need to lie down. Want to be shut off from
everything. Repeated this feeling in the evening. (110,f,1M: 26:XX: XX)
Misjudged distances
caused two falls. (110,f, 1M: 30:XX: XX)
A compulsion to
write 1958 instead of 1998 all day, and Ive written todays date a lot today.
Each time I have to stop myself from doing it. (58 is the year of my birth)
this symptom lasted only one day. (104,f, 30: 45:XX: XX)
Felt I acted
slightly inappropriately with 3 different patients today -tearful for a
patients state, as I read a remedy essence to her. Too approving of a patient
who is thinking of acting in a potentially unlawful way, for fear of seeming to
judge her. Spent most of a session chatting to a patient about mutual friends
instead of taking his case! Although it was mainly his doing. (104,f ,30:
47:XX: XX)
Time
One thing I noticed
is that time seems to slow down. (107,m, 1M: 01:XX: XX)
Not enough space
Driving home felt
not with it. Went through one or two gaps where there wasnt space to fit. Took
a few chances, sense of not having enough space. Other drivers had to move out
of my way. (Normally a very cautious driver, husband always says he can drive
in between the space Im driving in.) (103, f, 200: 02:XX: XX)
Do not want to be
restricted in any way - undo bra - feel uncomfortable, too tight, and too
restrictive. (110,f, 1M: 13:XX: XX)
Increased Energy
A spate of very
earthy activity which I love - walking the dog, cooked chocolate brownies,
producing a special meal for the family I havent felt like baking for months,
but its felt like a real need. Then relapsed into a martyr role of doing all
the washing up, cleaning up, even drying up, and couldnt stop until it was all
done and felt completely exhausted and no one noticed. (104,f, 30: 03:XX: XX)
Lack of motivation
Went out and stood
just waiting for instructions - no motivation, no initiative, looked sulky,
felt difficult and stubborn. (101, m, 1M: 05:XX: XX)
Irritable in the
morning on being challenged about getting on with jobs that needed doing on the
house/garden (i.e. not getting on with them!) (101, m, 1M: 13:XX: XX)
Feeling of not
knowing what I wanted to do, in the evening, I should be doing something,
restlessness. (104,f, 30, 11:XX: XX)
I have energy but
cant get on with anything. (109,f, 200: 11:XX: XX)
Travel / New
Opportunities
Travel opportunities
in the air. (110,f, 1M: 02:XX: XX)
A lot of travel and
distance seems to be the theme, possibly of foreign travel. Distant foreign
travels, not just Europe. This feels different. (110,f, 1M: 05:XX: XX)
Found I was doing
something completely new for me: - looking for jobs for my partner (hes unhappy
in his current job) and I was actually looking at jobs elsewhere in the
country, and abroad, and finding myself open to the possibility that moving
away from here might be an option, and even quite exciting ! Ive always been
adamant that Ill never move from this house, let alone from Manchester, but
suddenly the possibility was there, and it wasnt even scary! For me this is a
huge shift. Maybe weve been in Manchester too long??! Feels like itchy feet.
(104,f, 30: O6: XX: XX)
Lot of travel and
moving around me - been to travel agents to get house details, exciting - 2
months ago would have not thought about traveling and moving. (110,f, 1M:
17:XX: XX)
Quite excited at
thought of going away for the weekend. (101, m, 1M: 18:XX: XX)
Have developed an
intense passion for someone I shouldnt have! Its a hugely deep physical and
mental attraction and it feels all consuming and very distracting. I want to
spend all my time fantasizing about meeting him, and to sleep in order to dream
about him. Its about passion on the emotional level, not sexual. About a
meeting of minds and hearts, and it feels so right ...but at the same time it feels
so wrong because of my commitment to my partner. All in all, a very sensitive
issue, and I keep trying to push it away and hold on it being a part of the
proving, but the stronger urge is holding onto it because it feels so exciting
and new! (108,f, 30: 20:XX: XX)
Grief / Old Wounds
(I0S) Grief - deep
crying about: Dogs dying, a friends son, a bit about my mother - feelings of
deep sadness for the grief of others in the world - not depression, just
sadness. Sunshine makes these feelings worse. (103, f, 200: 08:XX: XX)
(I0S) Deep anger
about sexual abuse came up - a lot of it aimed at my stepfather who abused my
daughter as a child. (103, f, 200: 08:XX: XX)
(R0S) I am thinking
about my Dad (died 5 years ago) (109,f, 200: 14:XX: XX)
The horror of
looking down and seeing the frogs leg stuck in the door remains with me as I
wake up this morning. I wondered how it was. (103, f, 200: 18:XX: XX)
A friends ex husband
has died - shocking news - and my supervisor has also had some similar news
about a colleagues father, shes heard of two other deaths this week too.
(104,f, 30: 19:XX: XX)
Mothers day and felt
very down. Wept for the pain of all mothers for an hour in the afternoon, about
mothers being used and abused and acknowledged the world over. It was a very
deep pain, and most unusual for me. All this seems to have started or come to a
head since Friday when I saw old colleagues and started to talk about old job
and boss (very difficult period in my life). (104,f, 30: 57:XX: XX)
My present situation
is one of frustrated love - my loved one cannot be with me. Since the remedy,
are the different feelings with respect to this situation - sadness,
loneliness, depths of sadness, I wrote to my love I would rather be dead than
be like this with no contact. Before we had secretive contact full of stress,
it was hell, we ended it because it was making us so ill. But this is worse
this is like being in the shadows - dead having crossed the Styx. It is so
strong it could be a proving. I feel suicidal - so down in the depths of
loneliness - needing her to be with me. No one else will do! (102, m, 6: 00:XX:
XX)
Animals
Very irritable. The
cat is irritating me beyond measure. Threw her to the ground feeling loss of
control. Want to control everything. Used to feel like this when premenstrual -
the feeling would go once the period had started. This feeling went once I
started to take Evening Primrose about 20 years ago. (103, f, 200: 71:XX: XX)
The house seems in
danger of filling up with animals! Weve just got 40 ants in an "Ant world,
and the kids want a guinea pig and hamster. At the same time, one of our fish
was discovered dead on the floor, having jumped out and been there at least a
week - awful neglect or lack of interest on our part! (104,f, 30: 12:XX: XX)
Saw a Kingfisher
while walking - amazing sight! Animals seem so important in my life at the
moment. (104,f, 30: 15:XX:XX)
I feel Im getting
lots of useful information from unexpected sources at the moment. For example
the dogs been unwell and I thought she must have eaten something, then went for
a walk to the park and chatted to 2 council workmen who told me theyd just
found a huge pile of curry (!) under a tree where the dog had been nosing
around yesterday. (104,f, 30: 16:XX: XX)
A strange and disturbing event. I shut the
back door, looked down and saw half a frogs foot, half its lower limbs, and
half its upper leg. The upper part of the leg had the skin off (i.e. the
underlying tissue was exposed.) I couldnt bring myself to open the door for
fear of what the rest of the frog would look like. I got my husband to do that
- he called me in - the frog looked Ok and he let it go and it hopped away. I
cant work out the significance of this event. I feel very sorry for the frog -
again an example of feeling its pain - and its way of dying - because how could
its survive with such a bad injury. (103, f, 200: 17:XX: XX)
The horror of
looking down and seeing the frogs leg stuck in the door remains with me as I
wake up this morning. I wondered how it was. (103, f, 200: 18:XX: XX)
Two new animals
ensconced in the household - a hamster and a guinea pig (to join 2 cats, and a
big dog, 2 fish and 40 ants.) (104,f, 30: 23:XX: XX)
Felt as if animals
in the house are getting out of control! Everywhere I go theres a cat or dog or
hamster where it shouldnt be! At one stage there was a cat, a hamster and a
guinea pig all on the kitchen table I (maybe its the children who are out of
control!) Theres also mud, sawdust and hay all over the house and Im beginning
to wonder if it is such a good idea. (104,f, 30: 25:XX: XX)
At times today Ive
felt that the animals are controlling us rather -theres always something that
needs doing, or one that needs rescuing from a situation. (104,f, 30: 26:XX:
XX)
Another fish died
through neglect! The complete opposite of whats happening in dreams where Im
looking after neglected animals. (I am looking after all the other animals
well.) (104,f, 30: 60:XX: XX)
Anticipation
Sinking anticipatory
anxiety felt in stomach on waking, but Ive nothing to feel this way about.
(104,f, 30: 12:XX: XX)
Strongest emotion
absolutely nothing. Usual to feel this before menopause or before meditation,
lack of negative emotion feeling of contentment, all the problems are still
there. Started to think about grandchildren - could feel anxiety but stopped it
before it began - cut the loop. (103, f, 200: 14:XX: XX)
Anxious about giving
report to meeting - why do I put myself in these situations. (101, m, 1M:
19:XX: XX)
Refugee
(ROS) After son left
for school - felt dispossessed like a refugee - I dont have anywhere. (109,f,
200: 14:XX: XX)
Criticism
A lot of criticism
from my daughter about how difficult it is to live at home, I wont let her use
the stereo etc., etc., and complaints from 2 patients about how bad they feel
on homoeopathy theyre not sure they want anymore treatment. I felt able to
stand it but is quite an unusual amount for me all at the same time. I dont
feel particularly affected by all this criticism. (103, f, 200: 16:XX: XX)
Information
I feel Im getting
lots of useful information from unexpected sources at the moment. For example
the dogs been unwell and I thought she must have eaten something, then went for
a walk to the park and chatted to 2 council workmen who told me theyd just fund
a huge pile of curry (!) under a tree where the dog had been nosing around
yesterday. (104,f, 30: 16:XX: XX)
Some more useful
information gleaned from a fellow dog walker acquaintance in the park - to do
with a house for rent, which a friend of mine needs. It feels as if every time
I go out, I came home with something useful or interesting! (104,f, 30: 17:XX:
XX)
Met a friend in the
park that I havent seen for ages - arranged provisional lunch. (104,f, 30:
18:XX: XX)
Music
Suddenly really into
Bach string music - want it on all the time, its tugging at my heart strings!
(Never been interested in it before.) (104,f, 30: 17:XX: XX)
Introspection
Night seems a
threat. Little doubts create big worries. Sense of normality and freedom.
(1O7,m, 1M: 27:XX: XX)
On the outside
looking in. (11O,f, 1M: 27:XX: XX)
Wanted to drop out
of it all. (110,f, 1M: 28:XX: XX)
Lying in bed at
night before sleep and saw a visual image of blue bubbles rising against a pale
blue sky. Carbon dioxide came to my mind as a word (second time Ive had a
visual image - never had them before). (104,f, 30: 29:XX: XX)
Found myself
thinking about people I used to work with 18 years ago - maybe I dreamt about
them but I dont recall a clear dream. (104,f, 30: 27:XX: XX)
Introspection -
self-analysis - sensation of something traveling from the top of my head down
through my body to feet. Mentally grounded. (11O,f, 1M: 53:XX: XX)
(ROS) Impressions of
my father (twice) - he said be careful - has had the sense of protectiveness.
Before this time it was in words. (103, f. 200: 04: XX: XX)
Despondent
Felt the distance
thing again but feel miserable as if Ive got the whole world on my shoulders.
(110,f, 1M: 29:XX: XX)
Felt quite
despondent because of several patient cancellations during the last week. (103,
f, 200: 30:XX: XX)
Felt miserable down
in the dumps. Feel as if Ive gone to the extreme of this remedy. (110,f, 1M:
30:XX: XX)
Despondent and low.
(110,f, IM: 39:XX: XX)
Feel and look as if
Im a hundred years old. (People comment on my paleness). Low self-esteem - feel
unattractive - looked in mirror - pale and miserable. (110,f, 1M: 40:XX: XX)
Still low, feel
dragging and horrible. Dont want to communicate. (110,f, IM: 41:XX: XX)
Dont want to think
about anything Im dragging on to get through. (110,f, 1M: 42:XX: XX)
Exhausted and weepy.
(110,f, 1M: 45:XX: XX)
Feeling low, feeling
unattractive, I dont feel feminine. I dont know what I want anymore. I feel my
face and hair is a mess, weepy. (110,f, 1M: 46:XX: XX)
My 40th birthday and
have felt very down for a few days which is most unusual. Dont know if its to
do with the proving or because Im turning 40. Close to tears a lot of times,
and sobbed my heart out reading a sad story to my daughter at bedtime. Trying
not to feel sorry for myself a lot of time. (104,f,1M: 60:XX: XX)
Miscellaneous
Stunned to hear
sister has suffered a stroke or cancer of the brain. (107m, 1M: XX: XX: XX)
Noticed the sense of
depression that I used to get briefly on cooking has not been there since
taking the remedy. (103, f, 200: 04:XX: XX)
I want to eat,
drink, and sleep! All things I can ignore usually. (104,f, 30: 06:XX: XX)
Daughter and I
having a few spats about the use of the telephone, she doesnt like to be told
what to do. Situation feels healthier than it was. (103, f, 200: 09:XX: XX)
Very untidy in
bedroom - lots of things on bed. Extra covers wanted wool. (110,f, 1M: 09:XX:
XX)
(ROS) Dont want to
do mental work - but want to do physical work. (109,f, 200: 11:XX: XX)
Woke from a very
deep sleep and did not want to get up - wanted to curl up and sleep again. Felt
very warm and cozy. Then all day feeling very sleepy (not physical tired, but a
heavy bleary feeling in my head and eyes). (104,f, 30: 14:XX: XX)
Tired and lethargic
difficult to self-motivate. Possibly a delayed reaction to suffer. (101, m, 1M:
18:XX: XX)
Tired after long
drive. (101,m, 1M: 19:XX: XX)
Felt funny on
waking: wanted to slip back into my shadow. (110,f,1M: 19: XX: XX) (I0S) Fear
of cancer is so strong it nearly made me sick. Aware constantly of a lump on
the neck. Need great resolution to rationalize the situation. Last two days may
have seen the return of the remedy, this time more heavy and threatening.
(107,m, 1M: 19:XX: XX)
Feel people are
looking at me and know something is wrong with my eyes. Felt as if I might
burst into tears and would have done it if anyone had asked if anything was
wrong with my eyes. (110,f, 1M: 23:XX:XX)
Lowness lifting.
(110,f,1M: 48:XX: XX)
DREAMS
Animals
Drinking from a
saucepan - when I nearly completed it, found something like a large decomposed
slug stuck to the bottom of it - slug is long and large. Feeling of mild
disgust. (101, m, 1M: 01:XX: XX)
Dream of having a
kangaroo as a pet - just like we have a dog - and we had a collar and lead for
the kangaroo - it stood to adult size and to stop it making a noise (like a
barking sound) we had to put our hands to its mouth. Also this kangaroo wanted
to chase cats (just like a dog)- but its strength was too strong to hold it
back. (110,f, 1M: 09: XX: XX)
Cleaning out compost
bin and found a very large worm in the bottom (i.e. about one inch in
diameter.) Tried to get the worm out (no big drama) to put it back in the
garden - but cant remember if I was successful or not. (101, m, 1M: 12:XX: XX)
A baby - I was
holding it and somebody warned me not to let head go. Then saw turtles on the
floor - eating a rat - thought turtles were vegetarian - so why were they
there? (109,f, 200: 16:XX: XX)
Daughter was upset
about something. Asked her if she would like to see her rabbit that she had
previously given to a friend - she said she would. I said I would phone her
friend's mother - I was reluctant to do this because it seemed my daughter did
not want the responsibility of looking after the rabbit, but wanted the comfort
of him when she was feeling down. This relates to my present irritation with my
daughter. (103, f, 200 10: XX: XX)
Dreamt there was an
insect in my bed - an ant? Sat bolt upright, put the light on and started
brushing the bed off with my hand, then realised I had been dreaming. (I had
this dream many times in the past, but not for the last twelve months.) (104,f,
30: 13:XX: XX)
I was on a beach
where there were loads of stray animals; most of them were babies. On the sand
were two dogs with litters, each lying on a beach towel, so someone had
obviously been helping them. Very beautiful dogs one a red setter and a golden
setter. I got the impression they belong to someone but I think they had left a
note explaining how to care for them. There was a hamster on the loose and
another small furry creature, both living in some bushes, I picked them up and
decided theyd lived there long enough and seemed healthy enough and should stay
there, then I found a cat and a litter of kittens - a beautiful dark steel
colour with light silver grey stripes that were finely delineated - very
beautiful and unusual. I really wanted one of the kittens to take home,
thinking Id never come across any like that again. (104,f, 30: 31: XX: XX)
Dream of a cat I had
that died 7 years ago. He was hugely swollen and in great pain; his kidneys
were very swollen and I could feel them through his skin. We were discussing
what to do about him and whether to have him put down. (104,f, 30: 60:XX: XX)
Children
Looking after two
children - anxious to do it right - I kept tidying after them. (103, f, 200:
01:XX: XX)
Old Wounds
Dreams about father
(who is dead) and sister who dies in the dream (she has cancer). I was in
control of my emotions. Childhood memories - bunk bed etc. (107,m, 1M: 01:XX:
XX)
Urination
Dreams of urination
happened twice (but not in reality). (107,m, 1M: 03:XX: XX)
Nostalgia
Dream lost in an
area I used to live, nostalgia again, miss the bus, end up with a group of
strangers, young and old singing Christmas Carols. (107,m,1M: 03:XX: XX)
Danger/conflict
A mountain going
very high but also a coach going extremely fast, on a precipice, the fall was
crossed quickly. (107,m, 1M: 04:XX: XX)
I was driving and
got lost - seek help - helpers all women - menace like a group of witches or
devil worshippers. However feel in control - bump into a group of tourists, I
go to a rather grand hotel, feel as if agents of the women are there but it
doesnt matter, I have no fear on my pArt, even contempt, I goad them into
fights. (107,m, 1M: 01:XX: XX)
Working with
materials to disguise them so that they dont look hazardous. (110,f, 1M: 09:XX:
XX)
Searching
Being on a retreat
where the nuns were wandering from room to room trying to find someone to give
a talk whom they never found. (101, m, 1M: 07:XX: XX)
I go out and cannot
find my car. I am wandering the streets - but it is lost, there are crowds, it
is Italy, it is Christmas, crowds and crowds, I find a restaurant I was looking
for previously. (102, m, 6: 09:XX: XX)
We struggle down the
muddy narrow street. Left I am served and I am eating in the crowd. I thinking
the car has been taken away by the police. (107,m, 1M: 07:XX: XX)
Frightening dreams
initially, and then the sea arrived, then a house abroad, the return of whether
to live there or not.
Driving to take
flowers to a girlfriend and realize it was her mothers house I was taking the
flowers - I say to mother - Ive brought these to the wrong house - she smiles
coyly. (102, m, 6: 09:XX: XX)
Sexual
Sexual dream - never
been kissed so deliciously then frustration at the disappearance of the woman.
(107,m, 1M: 07:XX: XX)
I was in my bedroom
and an old girlfriend, very young and beautiful is talking to me through the
crack in the part open door. I eventually open the door and pull her in she is
naked and almost perfect, but not quite such perfect skin, we are making love.
(102, m, 6: 09:XX: XX)
Guilt
Driving a new white
sports car - witnessing an accident / car crash but didnt stop to help - just
carried on - not waiting to be involved - thinking someone would blame me for
the accident although it was not my fault. Turned around and drove back to the
crash after a couple of miles -everything was fairly calm, at scene of
accident. (101, m, 1M: 21:XX: XX)
Invasive
A person (male) kept
appearing in my car as I was driving it. I thought I must remember to put this
in my diary tomorrow, this is syphilitic but now on waking cant remember why it
is syphilitic. I have never had a dream that included a conscious thought
before a lucid dream. There was no fear just that the person was there - I
suppose he represented my supervisor in my life. It felt like an invasion, but
definitely not unpleasant just curious he was there. (103, f, 200: 01: XX: XX)
Yellow
Weird dream - had to
check dream and not for real, as it was so vivid. I was sitting on the floor
with some children and when I moved to get up I noticed a small yellow dot -
splodge of yellow discharge - and remember feeling embarrassed about it - I
then tried to discreetly wipe it up but as I wiped there seemed to be more and
more appearing and the small splodge was now becoming quite a puddle of yellow
discharge. On waking I had to check that no discharge was coming from me as
this felt so real. (110,f, 1M: 23:XX: XX)
Vivid
Dreams are plentiful
and very clear, like realistic paintings, all is real in immense detail in a
big house with old friends, my distant lover and I behaving as if we lived
together in great reality. (102, m, 6: 00:XX: XX)
Grief
(I0S) Dream: My
lover was away and I only saw her on Saturdays, we are on the bed and she says
I cannot see her on Saturdays again. I feel jealous and hurt, pull her hair
hard and feel very hurt. These feelings I would have exactly in the past but
now nothing like these so strong. (102, m, 6: 08:XX: XX)
Inadequacy
(ROS) Dreams of two
sad characters in a soap kissing each other. Two old women who watch are
delighted. Then two glamourous characters kiss - and one realises that she has
settled for second best. I felt sad for her. This reflects my old feeling about
my husband and myself. That I am less than interesting or attractive and so
deserve a person who is the same, but always felt my husband is not quite the
person I should have married. I should have married someone with a similar
intelligence to mine. (103, f, 200, 01:XX: XX)
Dreams of
stepfathers family, his business not doing very well yet he gave me £50. The
dream changes to me being in a class where we were being taught some dates in
history. Id never heard of any of the events but everyone else in the class had
and they contributed. I felt very stupid that I couldnt join in. (103, f, 200:
02: XX: XX)
The scene moved to
my Supervisor and I was looking at clothes in the supermarket and asked
supervisor if she had ever heard of the remedy Chattlo she had and I felt
stupid (similar to dream in the class the previous night.) (103, f, 200: 03:
XX: XX)
Clearing
Im working in a
supermarket with my sister in law - she was the manager and Im a mere plebe I
asked her what I should do and she suggested I make sure the aisles were clear.
But I said No, I know what I should do and thats to clear up the kitchen
because all the furniture was in the wrong place and it badly needed sorting
out. (104,f, 30: 04:XX: XX)
Reflection
Near old school with
a kid and an old guy. I tell them about self-confidence, that they should
learn, when young, to nurture it. Stand up and be counted. (A regret of mine
perhaps, so much time lost because of fear and weakness. Maybe some steel has
been soldered to the spine.) (107,m, 1M: 21:XX: XX)
Confusion
On a train with my
daughter and granddaughter who sat on the other side with a stranger. I said it
was time for granddaughter to go home. The train set off and I got worried
because it was time for granddaughter to go home. Then I realised we were
taking her home on the train. (103, f, 200: 03: XX: XX)
Guide
I got into a state
dancing - felt very tired, lethargic, a homoeopath who I didnt know - male,
tall, enigmatic air, came and said I needed Chattlo (a remedy) - I was reassured.
The scene moved to my supervisor and I was looking at clothes in the
supermarket and asked supervisor if she had ever heard of the remedy Chattlo,
she had and I felt stupid (similar to dream in the class the previous night.)
Destruction / regeneration
. Two people and myself in a wood clearing surrounded by dead animals, rabbits,
bits of bloody fur, hunting tools etc. Another image a person with snow falling
on them the sky was very bright behind. It was nuclear snow. Both these dreams
have images of destruction. (103, f, 200: 04: XX: XX)
Working in a
meat-processing factory - very friendly unexpectedly so. We all had somewhere
to go for break - the journey back was longer than the journey there - passing
through an area of demolition of buildings for regeneration - lots of animals,
ducks, rabbits, etc. my friend said it would all have to go. Then the inside of
a very old building with wall paintings. Then I saw a boy with lots of injuries
- bandages and lots of blood. At one point in a bedroom with lots of pairs of
trousers daughters new clothes. A woman at the factory became my friend. (103,
f, 200: 09: XX: XX)
An explosion ripping
through a street of stone terraced houses - very destructive. Only the houses
on the right hand side were affected. (103, f, 200: 11: XX: XX)
Efficiency
In an indoor market
lots of stalls and little cubicles. I had been offered the chance to practice
there. My client was one of the other stallholders. I sat her down and then had
to go off and do other things. I did all the other (cant remember what they
were now.) But all the time I was doing them I was conscious of feeling guilty
because this person was waiting for me. When I finally got back to her she was
very annoyed and said there was no time to do it as it was time for the market
to close. I looked around and everyone was packing up. I thought maybe there
was time before the market finally closed but she said no, she has to pack up
also. Feelings guilty, hurry, feeling an outsider, that I cant get it together
to do the job efficiently. (103, f, 200: 05: XX: XX)
Outsider The scene
shifted to a big event - I had somebody elses ticket which was spare, to enable
me to be there. I wasnt sure what was going on. My friends said it would be OK.
Two people started to move among the crowd looking at tickets to see who had
the tickets with the special lucky numbers on them and also asking for money -
it was a fund raising charity event. I was worried they would see it wasnt my
ticket because there was a photo of the ticket holder on it and it wasnt mine.
My friend said dont worry well go now and meet at a mutual friends house. I
made my way to the house carrying a trouser suit that was creased, so I ironed
it on a park bench on the way. Feeling with the dream feeling an outsider not
quite fitting in. (103, f, 200: 16: XX: XX)
A choir was
rehearsing in Swedish I could hear them. I went out for a walk and came to
cross a lane the choir came marching and I had to wait for them. They stopped
as they got to the end of the lane where I was waiting to cross and cheered and
clapped themselves. I got muddled up in them all milling about. I continued on
my way then saw some things for sale on the grass verge. I picked up a fishing
rod that looked very complicated and went to the little window to ask its
price. The man inside ignored me. I stood for a while and some of the singers
came up to buy things. After they had gone I asked the price of the fishing
rod, intending to buy it for my husband - the man said it was £84 so I put it
back because it was too expensive. Feeling of the dream, slight irritation that
the choir had stopped me. They didnt consider me at all because they were so
taken up with what they were doing - so I felt ignored. I felt resentment that
they were served by the man because they made more noise and I was ignored.
Traffic jam
Lots of cars driving
on the right of my view - a traffic jam. I was going straight on and intending
to turn to the left - this was my direction. I was pleased not to be going into
the traffic jam. (103,f,200: 15: XX: XX)
Train journey
We were waiting for
a train. When it came the railway people said the electricity had failed so
they had converted the train into a diesel and altered its doors so that they
would slide back manually. The doors were sliding and made from white plywood.
I looked for a carriage - the first had no window, the second had one window so
I planned to get in there. The feeling in the dream was really of going on a
train journey. (103, f, 200: 16: XX: XX)
Nostalgia
I was staying with
my mother, but for a short time - 1 1/2 days and it doesnt feel like its a
proper length visit. We are not in her normal house, its nowhere familiar, she
gets out loads of old stuff Ive never seen before - loads of half finished
canvases of embroideries of Egyptian architecture - all yellows, golds, ochres
in colour. Also an old envelope of photos of our childhood that Ive never seen
before, including quite a lot of me - my hairs too red, or my face too fat,
etc. All a slightly different me I didnt know anything about. At some point in
the dream my partner is packing up the car in a garage adjoining the house.
(104,f, 30: 03:XX: XX)
Lots of old friends
from school were around, and it felt as if it was set in school. General
feeling of being included and really wanted at some points, and ignored or
choosing to go off on my own because Id had enough, at other points. A school
reunion - very informal, and spread out and went on for God knows how long. At
one point someone was reading a newspaper with an article in it about someone I
hardly knew at school who was missing presumed dead, in some African country,
where hed been working as a naturalist (in reality is not his sort of thing at
all). The article was accompanied by a school photo, which showed him with his
class, so not a current photo of him. There was a sports day type event, lots
of tables with food on, and a great big stone flagon containing a concoction of
fermenting meat juices - not very nice! No one wanted to take it with them,
although the feeling was that someone should. (104,f, 30: 10:XX: XX)
Insecure
A long dream where I
was sitting on the outer edge of a window, 3 or 4 stories high, supported by a
plastic basket hooked onto the window frame. It felt very unsafe but I was
assured it was safe and there were several people around, including an old man
sitting in a similar basket in the next window. Very scary, unsafe feeling - I
hate heights. At some stage in the dream I went away and came back to find a
woman fiddling with a pair of my pants - trying to rub out a mark made by her
cigarette. (104,f, 30: 04:XX: XX)
Relationship
I was having a
relationship with an unknown woman and was due to move in with her in 3 days
time. The relationship seemed very right and meaningful, but then I realized I
had this awful dilemma - because I had to tell my current partner and hurt him,
or go back on the plans and hurt her. I didnt know how I could have got into
such a situation - it felt awful. A friend of mine was giving me advice and
saying my current partner and I were completely right for each other and meant
to be together. Part of the choice seemed to be between going to live in a
communal set up in the lesbian relationship, and staying somewhere known and
secure. I felt very confused, guilty and awful on waking. (108,f, 30: 19:XX:
XX)
Another dream on
sleeping again - cuddling with a bloke on the back seat of a bus! Someone I
know of, but have never met, and whom I know isnt very nice in reality, but in
the dream I seemed to like him. (108,f, 30: 19:XX: XX)
Sitting at a picnic
table on a hill with a friend and a woman I didnt know, waiting for my mother
and brother to walk up the hill (they were bringing us drinks), the stranger
was going on and on about her marriage breakdown, and my friend was getting
very irritable, so I told the stranger about my friends own marriage break up
to shut her up. When my brother arrived, he was wearing lots of jewelry and I
asked him for a gin and tonic and then realized his wife (someone who doesnt
like me in reality) was making it for me and I was surprised. I felt as if they
were waiting for us. Then I was sitting by a big round porthole like window
with waves washing up against it, but I could see a large cove and bay as well.
(104,f, 30: 33:XX: XX)
Family
With lots of members
of partners family trying to organize them into a coach trip to Tatton Park to
see an art exhibition. We were all in another stately home to start with.
(104,f, 30: 27:XX: XX)
Lack of space
I was driving a
friend around somewhere I didnt know in a car that was too big, and the streets
were too narrow - having lots of problems passing cars and getting around
corners. (104,f, 30: 31:XX: XX)
Amputation
I had a horrific
dream that I cut my own leg off! I used a saw and cut it off just below the
knee. I dont know why I did it but it had to be done. I then left a flap of
skin uncut because I had to hold it together to still get around! No pain
experienced, and no blood, just amazement and disgust. (104,f, 30: 60:XX: XX)
VERTIGO
Dizziness on rising
from sitting - the room spun round, and I had to hold onto the chair for a few
seconds. (102, m, 6: 07:XX: XX)
HEAD
Slight headache on
top of head - like a lid - tight fitting - lasts half an hour. (103, f, 200:
00:02:25)
Dull pressing pain -
right occipital and right side head. As if headache would develop but it didnt.
(104,f, 30: 00:13:25)
Headache started
while working outside. Band like. Like a slide only wider. Over the top of the
scalp down to both temples. Later extended to behind eyes and sides of lower
forehead, level with eyes. Lasted 10 minutes. Dull pain, not severe, came in
waves. (103, f, 200: 01: XX: XX)
Heaviness like a
weight - slightly sickly feeling alternating with feeling of band going around
head, and is too tight, extends down to bridge of nose. (110,f, 1M: 01:XX: XX)
Heaviness - woke
7.30 with heaviness, still there evening. (110,f, 1M: 02:XX: XX)
Heaviness top of
head. (110,f, 1M: 03:XX: XX)
Headache - from
occipital on left hand side coming from over the head into forehead just above
left eye. Neuralgia quite painful, deep, penetrating. (102, m, 6: 03:XX: XX)
Pain over left eye,
aching, originating near left ear extending to left temple. (107,m, 1M: 03:XX:
XX)
Headache on and off
in intensity. (102, m, 6: 04:XX: XX)
Pain occiput / nape
after gardening. Neck was not stiff, weather was very cold. (103, f, 200:
13:XX: XX)
Headache all over
the head. Forehead dull ache. Pain behind the ears. (103, f, 200: 16:XX: XX)
Slight pain left
temple extending under left eye. (107,m, 1M: 17:XX: XX)
Slight pain left
temple. (107,m, 1M: 18:XX: XX)
Stinging, pressing
pain left temple, felt on the surface only. (104,f, 30: 21:XX: XX)
Heaviness on head as
if concrete block on head makes eyes feel funny. (110,f, 1M: 22:XX: XX)
Heaviness of head on
waking, more over right eye. (110,f, 1M: 28:XX: XX)
Headache top of head
and bridge of nose (right) followed a fall where I hit my head. (110,f, 1M:
30:XX:XX)
Slight migraine with
nausea, in waves. (103, f, 200 30:XX: XX)
Sensation as if hair
on left side of scalp is pulled up, standing on end. (104,f, 30: 41:XX: XX)
Whacking headache on
waking. (110,f, 1M: 55:XX: XX)
Pain headache - as
if hungry - extending down front and neck. (109,f, 200: XX:XX:XX)
Headache above left
eye, stabbing pain. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Headache extending
to left temple. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Headache extending
under left eye. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Headache extending
down nose. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Headache extending
to left cheekbone. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Headache pressure.
(100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Headache sensation
as if sore. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
EYES
Heaviness of eyes.
(110.f, 1M: 06:XX: XX)
Slight tremor under
left eye and over left eyebrow. (107,m 1M: 12:XX: XX)
Slight pain left
eye. (107,m, 1M: 18:XX: XX)
Eyes crusted at the
corners - particularly outside edge - sore and watery. Sensation as if looking
out from under heavy eyebrows. (110,f, 1M: 23:XX: XX)
Left eye sore. Eye
looks puffy all round. (104,f, 30: 41:XX: XX)
Left eyebrow outer
edge - sore and tender, concomitant to sharp pain cheek bone (left). (104, f,
30: 41:XX: XX)
Stabbing pain in
left eyeball like needles pushed inwards. (104,f, 30: 45:XX: XX)
Eye soreness
pressure (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Pain behind left
eye. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
VISION
Slight photophobia
eating frequent meals; plain food. (103, f, 200: 13:XX: XX)
Seemed to see
objects with forked lightning flashing around them - lasts for one hour (proved
fall where bumped head). (110,f, 1M, 30:XX: XX)
EAR
(ROS) Left ear full
of some form of liquid causing discomfort and impaired hearing. (102, m, 6: 06:XX:
XX)
(R0S) Eruptions
behind the ears have returned - undoing effects of last constitutional remedy.
(102, m, 6: 08: XX: XX: XX)
Sore and slightly
sticky behind right ear - in crease of ear. (104,f, 30: 16:XX: XX)
HEARING
Sudden piercing ringing
in right ear - lasts 10 seconds (symptoms repeated Several times through the
proving.) (104,f, 30: 06:XX: XX)
Sudden blocked ear -
followed by ringing. (110,f, 1M: 24:XX: XX)
NOSE
Sneezed several
times during the day. (101, m, 1M: 00:XX: XX)
(R0S) snuffle early
morning. (101, m, 1M: 01:XX: XX)
Very itchy end of
nose tip and nostrils - wanted to rub it - lasted half an hour as if hair was
tickling. (Symptom repeated several times in the proving.) (104,f, 30: 01:XX:
XX)
Sudden one off
sneezing. (Dog and cat had the same - repeated on day 3) (104,f, 30: 01: XX:
XX)
(R0S) Sniffles most
of the day - clear discharge. (101, m, 1M: 04:XX: XX)
Cold symptoms
appearing - nose alternating between blocked and being runny thin clear mucous.
(110,f, 1M: 07:XX: XX)
Nose started to run
like a tap, clear watery discharge. By end of day nose stopped running -
blocked up again. (110,f, 1M: 08:XX: XX)
Watery clear
discharge. (110,f, 1M: 09:XX: XX)
Heightened sense of
smell of people. Noticed bacterial odour and perfume intensely and
unpleasantly. (104,f, 30: 12:XX: XX)
Right nostril sore
(at same time as sore on mouth.) (104,f, 30: 29:XX: XX)
Nose twitching.
(100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
SMELL
Smell acute. (100,
f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Smell car fumes,
petrol fumes (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Heightened sense of
smell of people. Noticed body odour and perfume intensely and unpleasantly.
(104,f, 30: 12:XX: XX)
FACE Painful tension
in left jaw joint. (104,f, 30: 03:XX: XX)
Face burning while
eating - hot to touch. (104,f, 30: 07:XX: XX)
(ROS) Left cheek
slightly swollen. (110,f,1M: 12:XX:XX)
(IOS) Neuralgia pain
originating in mandible (left) extending to left ear. (107,m, 1M: 12:XX: XX)
Slight pain left
temple extending under left eye. (107,m, 1M: 17:XX: XX)
Slight pain left
temple. (107,m, 1M: 18:XX: XX)
(R0S) Spots and
pimples on face chin and around mouth - left side. (103, f, 200: 16:XX: XX)
Tenderness left
cheek - as if scratched. Sharp boring pain in bone of left lower jaw (changes
to stinging). Moved to front lower teeth. (104,f, 30: 21: XX: XX)
(ROS) Sharp boring
pain in bone of left lower jaw. Moved to front lower teeth. (104,f, 30: 21:XX:
XX)
(ROS) Sinus like
pains - sinus area feels tender, jawbone hurts when mouth opens wide. (110,f,
1M: 22:XX:XX)
Dry wart like
eruption corner of mouth right side. Raised, red, not sore, (at same time as
right nostril sore). (104,f, 30: 29:XX: XX)
Left eyebrow outer
edge - sore and tender, concomitant to sharp pain cheek bone (left). (104,f,
30: 41:XX: XX)
Left lip, upper,
swollen and sore. Face symptoms left sided. (104,f, 30: 42:XX: XX)
Face symptoms in
clusters around time of ovulation. (104,f, 30: XX: XX: XX)
MOUTH
Dribbling while
asleep. (104,f, 30: 00:02:30)
I occasionally
experience a tingling sensation in the mouth around 7.30 pm last night was
around 10pm. (107,m, 1M: 01: XX: XX)
Lips sore and dry
and tingly. (110,f, 1M: 08:XX: XX)
Slight soreness
inside mouth left side. (104,f, 30: 21:XX: XX)
Mouth dry. (107,m,
1M: 21: XX: XX)
Dry wart like
eruption corner of mouth right side. Raised, red, not sore, (at same time as
right nostril sore) (104,f, 30: 29:XX: XX)
Upper gum sore and
feels swollen. (104,f, 30: 42:XX: XX)
Left lip, upper,
swollen and sore. Face symptoms left sided. (104, f, 30: 42:XX: XX: XX)
Cold sore left
corner. (110,f, 1M: 44:XX: XX)
TASTE
Sour, juicy taste.
(104,f, 30: 00:00:15)
No bad taste in
mouth on waking, which is unusual (which continued through the proving) -
curative symptom. (107,m, 1M: 01: XX: XX)
Intensely aware of
metallic taste of fillings. (104,f, 30: 03:XX: XX)
TEETH
Sticking sensation
in top left molars. (104,f, 30: 03:XX: XX)
(R0S) Slight
toothache while chewing food. (101, m, 1M: 08:XX: XX)
Great sensitivity of
teeth to heat and cold. (102, m, 6: 08:XX:XX)
The sensitivity in
the teeth has intensified in the afternoon not eating or drinking great pain in
the teeth on right hand side extending upwards to a bad pain in the forehead by
the hairline. (102, m, 6: 08: XX: XX)
Toothache much of
the day. (101,m,1M: 11:XX: XX)
(ROS) Gums bleeding
while cleaning teeth. (103, f, 200: 12:XX: XX)
Toothache while
eating lasted five minutes. (101, m, 1M: 14:XX: XX)
(R0S) Sharp boring
pain in bone of left lower jaw. Moved to front lower teeth. (104,f, 30: 21:XX:
XX)
(R0S) Slight
toothache - intermittent half an hour - then stopped couple of hours - then
started again. (101, m, 1M: 23:XX: XX)
THROAT
Sore, loose catarrh
- need to clear throat a lot half an hour every morning. (101, m, 1M: 04:XX:
XX)
Sore, scratchy
throat. (103, f, 200: 04:XX: XX)
Had to keep clearing
throat, feels as if will get blocked up. Watery catarrh running down throat,
(110,f, 1M: 06:XX: XX)
Croaky throat after
eating evening meal - repeated clearing, no expectoration. (101, m, 1M: 06:XX:
XX)
Red patch appeared
on throat, left side, feels burning to touch. Need to swallow a lot of saliva.
Feel as if two frogs have taken up residence. (110,f, 1M: 06:XX: XX)
Sore throat nearly
disappeared. (110,f, 1M: 07:XX: XX)
Catarrhal evening.
(103, f, 200: 55:XX: XX)
Sore throat. (110,f,
1M: 55:XX: XX)
EXTERNAL THROAT
Swollen sub
maxillary gland left side. Painful on swallowing. (104,f, 30: 42:XX: XX)
STOMACH
Pain (indigestion)
left hand side. (100, f, 6: 00:XX: XX)
Pain worse for
eating (100, f, 6: 00:XX: XX)
Hungry all the time,
for anything, snacking all day. (100, f, 6: 00:XX: XX)
(R0S) Mild
indigestion - slight burning sensation in oesophagus after eating. (107,m, 1M:
00:XX: XX)
(R0S) Less hungry,
yet when I eat I enjoy it immensely. (107,m, 1M, 00:XX: XX)
Pangs of hunger
while walking - very unusual as not normally hungry till afternoon. Increased
appetite generally during proving. (104,f, 30: 02:XX: XX)
Nausea felt above
umbilicus and throat but not in stomach. (104,f, 30: O6: XX: XX)
(R0S) Indigestion
after eating, morning. (107,m, 1M: 08:XX:XX)
(R0S) Mild
indigestion worse for cereal, morning. (107,m, 1M: 09:XX: XX)
Woke at 5.30 am with
severe heartburn better for standing upright. Food and drink have no effect.
(103, f, 200: 13: XX: XX)
(R0S) Slight
indigestion better for eating apples. (107,m, 1M: 17:XX: XX)
(R0S) Slight
indigestion eating, feeling of nausea and bloatedness. (107,m, 1M: 19:XX: XX)
Intense nausea while
walking. (104,f, 30: 21:XX: XX)
Indigestion worse
for bread. (107,m, 1M: 21:XX: XX)
Stomach upset,
bloated, quite painful. (110,f, 1M: 36:XX: XX)
Tummy upset on and
off toilet - explosive stools. (110,f, 1M: 37:XX: XX)
Bowels not as bad as
before not as aggressive. (110,f, 1M: 38:XX: XX)
ABDOMEN
(R0S) Fleeting pain
along bikini line - scar tissue. Had an operation in 1979. Pain appeared in the
last 18 months. (103, f, 200: 00:XX: XX)
Pain just beneath
ribs, at the bottom, left side. Intermittent. A round pain in one spot. The
size of an apple. (103, f, 200: 03:XX: XX)
(ROS) Waistline very
itchy and red - across front abdomen (this symptom repeated several times in
proving) - itching either on back or abdomen but never both at the same time.
(104,f, 30: 05:XX: XX)
(R0S) Sharp
throbbing pain right pubic bone (site of old cyst). (104,f, 30: 11: XX: XX)
RECTUM
Bowel movement loose
and spluttering (until 00: 08:30). (103, f, 200: 00:01: 20)
(R0S) Haemorrhage -
bright red blood from the bowel. (102, m, 6: 10:XX:XX)
Bowel movements a
lot better than they were before the remedy (curative). (103, f, 200: 31:XX:
XX)
BLADDER
Urinating more than
normal. (107,m, 1M: 00:XX: XX)
FEMALE
Lost a lot of blood
- colour reddish brown - in between period. (110,f, 1M: 09:XX: XX)
Period started
suddenly without any warning - flow started with flooding (usually would have
slight show for first few hours.) (104,f, 30: 11:XX: XX)
Felt full of energy
day of the start of period (usually tired and drained). (104,f, 30: 11: XX: XX)
No aching or
snappiness with the children - surprised. (110,f, 1M: 19:XX: XX)
(R0S) Aching pain
over right ovary, morning after coition. (103, f, 200: 20:XX: XX)
Green/yellow
leucorrhoea with small lumps. (103, f, 200: 20:XX: XX)
Pain gone by
afternoon, discharge less during the day. (103, f, 200: 20:XX: XX)
Menses pain -
stabbing, sore lower abdomen, waking with the symptoms. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
LARYNX AND TRACHEA
Voice loss (lower
respiratory tract infection) steadily worsened. Cant talk but want to talk to
people. Painless. Frustrated with it. (103, f, 200: 48:XX: XX)
SPEECH AND VOICE
Voice getting deep
and very hoarse. (110,f, 1M: 06:XX: XX)
Voice loss (lower
respiratory tract infection) steadily worsened. Cant talk but want to talk to
people. Painless. Frustrated with it. (103, f, 200: 48:XX: XX)
Feel as if two frogs
have taken up residence. (110,f, 1M: 06:XX: XX)
RESPIRATION
Shortness of breath,
in bed; with feelings of chaos and losing control. (104,f, 30: 22:XX: XX)
COUGH
In the night woke
with a bad coughing fit. (110,f, 1M: 03:XX: XX)
Cough and sore
throat deep down. Hurts when I cough. (110,f, 1M: 06:XX: XX)
Coughing - soreness
deep in throat and then later in the day moves to roof of mouth. (110,f, 1M:
07:XX: XX)
A lot of coughing -
very chesty. Small amounts of phlegm coming up to the back of the throat.
(110,f, 1M: 08:XX: XX)
Cough returned at
night for one and a half hours. (110,f, 1M: 19:XX: XX)
Cough dry, tickling,
returned at night for two hours. (110,f, 1M: 25:XX: XX)
Cough, worse
evening, deep, barking, hurts mid chest. Productive after a hot drink. (103, f,
200: 48:XX: XX)
Chesty cough.
(110,f,1M: 58:XX:XX)
CHEST
Itching outer edge
left breast. (104,f, 30: 00:00:15)
Itching outer edge
left breast and then an hour later outer edge right breast. (104,f, 30: 04:XX:
XX)
Stitching pains outer
edge right breast lasts one to two seconds. (104,f, 30: 12:XX: XX)
Right breast patch
(1 by 3/4) dry, rough flaky, pink skin, extending from nipple to armpit,
itching on and off. (104,f, 30: 15:XX: XX)
Stitching pains
first in outer left breast and then right breast. (104,f 30: 26:XX: XX)
Respiratory tract
infection. Congested feeling in circumscribed area (round/ pain sensation) size
of a plum a few days ago; but now size of a grapefruit. Central, behind
sternum. Cough, worse evening, deep, barking, hurts mid chest Productive after
a hot drink. (103, f, 200: 48:XX: XX)
Sensation as if lump
between sternum and clavicle now size of an orange worse after large meal.
Comes and goes, night in bed 11-12pm. (103, f, 200: 53:XX: XX)
BACK
Pain lower back,
left of spine. (103, f, 200: 00:05:00)
Sensation as if cold
at the back of the neck. Intense. Had to put scarf around the neck. (103, f,
200: 00:08:15)
Felt very unusually
stiff in the evening after a long, hard Tai Chi lesson. Lower back very stiff.
(101, m, 1M: 02:XX: XX)
(R0S) Itchy across
lower back (repeated several times in proving see abdomen). (104,f,30:
02:XX:XX)
(R0S) Stiff
shoulders early morning. (101, m, 1M: 03:XX: XX)
Sensation as if cold
- back of neck, sensation as if wearing a damp collar. Extends to shoulders.
(103, f, 200: 03:XX: XX)
Left shoulder mildly
stiff - no reason. (104,f, 30: 05:XX: XX)
(R0S) Itchy across
lower back - with raised bumpy eruption, little pimples like fleabites. (104,f,
30: 06:XX: XX)
Sharp pain left
lower buttock while walking. (104,f, 30: 10:XX: XX)
Sharp pain right
side of neck. (104,f, 30: 10:XX: XX)
Very sharp pain
right lumbar area while standing. (104,f, 30: 13:XX: XX)
Pain in right
buttock extending down to upper thigh worse for standing up and moving around.
(104,f, 30: 18:XX: XX)
Cold and damp
feeling around the neck hung around for a while but now gone. (103, f, 200:
55:XX: XX)
Itching lower back -
sometimes with eruption, sometimes without. (104,f, 30: XX: XX: XX)
(I0S) Back felt very
bad - had to sit down better for rest. (109,f, 200: XX: XX: XX)
Extending to neck
and shoulders - ache deep in muscles. (109,f, 200: XX: XX: XX)
EXTREMITIES
Heavy legged at work
(postman) even though it was a light work day. (101, m, 1M: 00:XX: XX)
Slight pins and
needles of toes on both feet on rising. (103, f, 200: 00:02:15)
Pain left thigh
similar to cramp. Anterior muscles. Worse walking up a hill better for walking
on flat level ground. (103, f, 200: 00:06:15)
Hands very cold,
while eating, especially left hand changed to cool, as if wet and a breeze
flowing over it. (This symptom repeated a number of times over first few days-
sometimes worse on the right hand). (104,f, 30: 00:12:45)
Left arm: tight band
like feeling round the elbow, as if had been bent for a long time and would get
pins and needles. (104,f, 30: 00:12:45)
(ROS) Front shins
itchy and dry - want to scratch a lot. No eruption. (This symptom repeated a
number of times during proving - sometimes only left or right.) Voluptuous
itching, must scratch almost pleasurable. (104,f, 30, 00:13:45)
Legs feel heavy
after a long hard Tai Chi session. (101, m, 1M: 02:XX: XX)
Left hand icy cold
while doing paper work. (104, f,30: 02:XX: XX)
Itching - strong -
lower section left index finger. (104,f,30: 02:XX: XX)
(R0S) Arthritis
flared up - top metatarsal joint, second little toe, left foot. (103, f, 200:
03:XX: XX)
(ROS) Slight pain
left shinbone. (103, f, 200: 04:XX: XX)
(ROS) Pins and
needles both feet, top at base of toes and top of first part of toes. (103, f,
200: 05:XX: XX)
Itching inner left
calf. (104,f, 30: 05:XX: XX)
(R0S) Feet stiff and
itchy after sitting down. (103, f, 200: 06:XX: XX)
Aching in muscles of
upper and lower arms, worse right side, as if muscles bruised. Worse stretching
arms out straight. (104,f, 30, 06:XX: XX)
Itching ball right
foot - had to wriggle foot in shoe to relieve. (104,f, 30: 06:XX: XX)
Left foot, middle
toe, itching like mad. No better for scratching. (104,f, 30: 06:XX: XX)
As hands warm up
from being very cold, tips of right fingers quite painful, like frostbite
melting out. (104,f, 30: 07:XX: XX)
(ROS) Feet sore and
aching after getting up from sitting position. (103, f, 200: 09:XX: XX)
Aching in bend of
right elbow - feel as if would cut off blood supply if bent elbow for more than
a few seconds. (104,f, 30: 10:XX: XX)
Tenderness right
upper arm worse pressing, worse walking sharp pain right shoulder joint.
(104,f, 30: 10:XX: XX)
Skin on fingertips,
especially thumbs and forefingers - rough and sore and cracked especially down
outside forefingers. Right worse than left top of right thumb cracked and sore.
(110,f, 1M: 10:XX: XX)
Back left lower calf
itching - must scratch. (104,f, 30: 11:XX: XX)
Itching on left knee
and right elbow simultaneously. (104,f, 30: 14:XX: XX)
Cracked dry heels
both feet like sandpaper, rough. (110,f, 1M: 14:XX: XX)
(I0S) Psoriasis on
right elbow spreading down lower arm. Rougher, pinker, drier than usual.
(104,f, 30: 15:XX: XX)
Two tiny pinprick
marks 1/2 cm. apart between thumb and wrist left hand - very itchy. Reminds me
of a bite from something with two very sharp teeth. (104,f, 30: 15:XX: XX)
Intensified soreness
in finger and thumb. (110,f, 1M: 15:XX: XX)
Finger and thumb
beginning to heal up. (110,f, 1M: 17:XX: XX)
Stinging sensation
front of both thighs. (104,f, 30: 17:XX: XX)
Stinging palms both
hands, left palm worse. (104,f, 30: 17:XX: XX)
Small spot on little
finger right, itchy, sore, fingers looked puffy. Middle finger felt stiff -
cannot bend properly - with itching. All knuckles hurt. (110,f, 1M: 20:XX: XX)
Prickling sensation
on thighs. (104,f, 30: 20:XX: XX)
Bony spur that has
developed for the past year (joint on big toe, right) has gone - cured symptom.
(103, f, 200: 21:XX: XX)
Boring pain tip of
fingers 1 and 2, left hand. (104,f, 30: 21:XX:XX)
Joints feel stiff -
okay when I keep going - difficulty to get into car. (110,f, 1M: 37: XX: XX)
Cracks on heels sore
and bad. (110,f, 1M: 44:XX: XX)
Soreness behind
knees, very itchy, dry, likes eczema. (110,f, 1M: 51:XX: XX)
Feel like legs made
of lead. Feel like my ankles are weak - it is my ankles that ache so much -
tiredness at bottom of legs. (110,f, 1M: 52:XX: XX)
Still the same
sensation of aching going down. (110.f, 1M: 53:XX: XX)
(I0S) Pain in
shoulder, rheumatic, achy, twisting - as if been gardening. Damp cold type of
pain - deep inside joint. (109,f, 200: XX: XX: XX)
Itching, stinging,
fleeting, intense (i.e. moving around) - lots of symptoms through proving.
Pinpricks moving around, all over body. Better for scratching, but pops up
somewhere else, other times no better for scratching. So many itches I cant
keep up with recording them all. No eruptions lasted all day. (104,f, 30: XX:
XX: XX)
SLEEP
Woke up very
refreshed which is very unusual (107,m, 1M: 00:XX: XX)
Didnt sleep well
woke up 5-6 times but only awake approximately 5 minutes each time. (101, m,
1M: 00:XX: XX)
Very sound night's
sleep much better than recently- curative. (104, f,30 01:XX: XX)
Slept very well, the
first time I can remember without waking. Feel refreshed after sleep.
(107,m,1M: 01: XX: XX)
Waking during the
night 2 am, 3.45 am, - sense of going back to sleep quite quickly. (110,f, 1M:
04:XX: XX)
Woke 5 times from 1
am - got up at 6 am. (110,f,1M: 05:XX: XX)
Awoke 3 times in the
night. (110,f, 1M: 06: XX: XX)
Awoke 4 times in the
night approximately every two hours. (110,f, 1M: 07:XX: XX)
Went to bed around
9.30 pm. and slept till 9.3O am. - I woke at 3am and was sleepless for half an
hour, then slept well till 9.3O am. (102, m, 6: 08:XX: XX)
Very strong desire
to sleep in the evening, desperate to close my eyes. Very tired sleep for 1 1/2
hours. (110,f, 1M: 13:XX: XX)
Woke every hour.
(110,f, 1M: 18:XX: XX)
Disturbed sleep,
only slept for 4-5 hours. Mind active and agitated on waking. (107,m, 1M:
19:XX:XX)
Sleep restless.
Tossed and turned. End of day - heavy head, tireless again, restless; dont want
to go to bed. (110,f, 1M: 25:XX: XX)
Woke unrefreshed.
(100, f,6: XX:XX:XX)
(I0S) Sleep pattern
beginning to be disturbed. Dont feel sleepy until 3-4 am. -tired of it. Despite
this still have energy. (109,f, 200: XX: XX: XX)
(I0S) Feel tired but
cant sleep when I go to bed - I could have stayed up but made myself go to bed.
(109, f, 200: XX: XX: XX)
Six hours
uninterrupted sleep (first time since proving). (110,f, 1M: 40:XX: XX)
CHILL
Feels very cold
internally in a warm room, sensation as if started with a cold. (103, f, 200:
01:XX: XX)
PERSPIRATION
Copious hot sweat
all night. (102, m, 6: 06:XX: XX)
SKIN
Fleeting pinprick
stinging sensations - left side - left big toe, outer edge left nose, outer
edge left breast, while in bed. (104,f, 30: 00:00:15)
2 hours after first
remedy - rash. From elbow to inside wrist - slight red rash right side. After
sleep it had gone. (109,f, 200: 00:02:00)
In bed - stinging
sensations - left jaw, right lower shin, back, right wrist. (104,f, 30:
00:02:30)
Stinging itchy
pinpricks - right sided mainly. One at a time, fleeting, played a game guessing
where next one would appear. (104,f,30: 00:16:15)
Small patch of skin
rash on right cheek - raised individual spots - like eczema. (110,f, 1M: 02:XX:
XX)
Skin on fingertips,
especially thumbs and forefingers - rough and sore and cracked especially down
outside forefingers. Right worse than left top of right thumb cracked and sore.
(110,f,1M: 10:XX: XX)
Crawling sensation
(hands and face). (104,f, 30: 12:XX: XX)
Intensified soreness
in finger and thumb. (110,f, 1M: 15:XX: XX)
Finger and thumb
beginning to heal up. (110,f, 1M: 17:XX: XX)
Small spot on little
finger right, itchy, sore, fingers looked puffy. Middle finger felt stiff -
cannot bend properly - with itching. All knuckles hurt. (110,f, 1M: 20:XX: XX)
Itching, stinging,
fleeting, intense (i.e. moving around) - lots of symptoms through the proving.
Pinpricks moving around, all over the body. Better for scratching, but pops up
somewhere else, other times no better for scratching. So many itches I cant
keep up with recording them all. No eruptions lasted all day. (104,f, 30: XX:
XX: XX)
GENERALS
Unusually tired all
day. (101, m, 1M: 00:XX: XX)
Brighter since 6 pm.
More alert and awake. (101, m, 1M: 00:XX: XX)
No appetite or
thirst all day (continues through proving). (110,f, 1M: 01:XX:XX)
Inexhaustible
reserve of energy. (11O,f, 1M: 01:XX: XX)
Lack of tiredness,
bubbly no stress. (110,f, 1M: 02:XX: XX)
No appetite or
thirst all day. (110,f, 1M: 02:XX: XX)
Felt very tired
generally late evening. (101, m, 1M: 02:XX: XX)
After a beer felt
intoxicated as if I had drunk 5 or 6 beers - strange. (102, m, 6: 03:XX: XX)
Very tired morning -
better late afternoon early evening. (101, m, 1M: 03:XX: XX)
Lethargic in the
morning. (101, m, 1M: 04:XX: XX)
Craving; milky
Horlicks (desperate for - lasted several days), fresh orange juice (104,f, 30:
05:XX: XX)
Craved Coca cola,
but didnt enjoy as much as I expected I would. (104,f, 30: 06:XX: XX)
Very tired after
driving 6 hours during the day - mid evening. (101, m, 1M: 06:XX: XX)
Internal coldness,
with nausea. (104,f, 30: 06:XX: XX)
Felt more energetic,
lively than usual in the afternoon. (101, m,1M: 07:XX: XX)
Energy still high
but sounding worse in voice. (11O,f,1M: 07:XX: XX)
Looked pale.
(110,f,1M: 08:XX: XX)
Craving butter.
(104,f,30: 08:XX: XX)
(ROS) Craving jam
and peanut butter. (104,f, 30: 08:XX: XX)
Desires oranges and
chocolate biscuits (Days 2-9). (110,f, 1M: 09: XX: XX)
Wanted more heat -
heating on all night. (110,f, 1M: 09:XX: XX)
Very tired in the
afternoon went to bed and slept 1 1/2 hours - felt refreshed afterwards. (101,
m, 1M: 09:XX: XX)
Tired in the morning
went to bed in afternoon dozed for about an hour - not refreshed. (101, m, 1M:
10:XX: XX)
Very tired in the
evening after a day out to the seaside. (101, m, 1M: 11:XX: XX)
Must eat oranges
1.30 am. (110,f, 1M: 13:XX: XX)
(I0S) Desire
chocolate. (104,f, 30: 13:XX: XX)
Craving coffee
(longing). (104,f, 30: 14:XX: XX)
Think I am putting
on weight. (104,f, 30: 16:XX: XX)
Tired 8-9 pm. (101,
m, 1M: 19:XX: XX)
Physical and
emotional symptoms intense just before and during full moon. (104,f, 30: 21:XX:
XX)
Feeling cold, chilly
- under the duvet at 7.30 pm. (110,f, 1M: 22:XX: XX)
Very chilly, central
heating on and open fire on. (110,f, 1M: 23:XX: XX)
First day without an
orange. Appetite picking up a bit. (110,f, 1M: 24:XX: XX)
Thirst returning.
(110,f, 1M: 25:XX: XX)
Feeling travel sick
- after 2 minutes, in the car. (11O,f, 1M: 27:XX: XX)
Feeling very sleepy
early evening and wanting to go to bed, but by midnight Im wide awake and
wanting to do things for another hour (lasted a few days). (104,f, 30: 27:XX:
XX)
Very cold inside
while lying down. Having to jiggle my body to keep warm. (104,f, 30: 28:XX: XX)
Fed up with lack of
energy - could not take the dog for a walk - could not physically do it.
(110,f, 1M: 28:XX: XX)
Desire for oranges
returned - had two today. (110,f, 1M: 30:XX: XX)
Better for lying
down - not sleepy. (11O,f, 1M: 30:XX: XX)
No energy reserves
any more: once used up nothing to fall back on. (110,f, 1M: 31:XX: XX)
Want hot drinks,
(110,f, 1M: 31:XX: XX)
Tired. (11O,f, 1M:
34: XX: XX)
Low energy this
afternoon. (11O,f, 1M: 35:XX: XX)
Energy really low.
(110,f, 1M: 36:XX: XX)
Tired and aching:
joints stiff when asleep, lethargic. (110,f, 1M: 40:XX: XX)
Aching and creaking
on getting up from sitting or lying for 2 days. Really creaky like an old
woman. (104,f, 30: 41:XX: XX)
Wandering pains.
(100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Could point directly
to location of pain. (100, f,6: XX: XX: XX)
Pain both sides of
body. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Left sided pains.
(100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Feel cold - lasts 3
days. (100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Dress - covered up.
(100, f, 6: XX: XX: XX)
Physical symptoms
come and go in clusters i.e. lots for 2-3 days, then none for a few days.
(104,f, 30, XX: XX: XX)
Symptoms appear and
disappear suddenly. (104,f, 30, XX: XX: XX)
Symptoms one sided -
either left or right. Some started on left and then experienced on the right.
(104,f, 30, XX: XX: XX)
No appetite - eating
out of habit. (109,f, 200, XX: XX: XX)